I'm feeling slightly melancholic today. It might be the rain. Rainy days generally tend to keep me indoors. Heaven forbid that rain water soils my beautiful clothes! :P And of course, being indoors at home tends to make it easy for the mind to wander. Today, my thoughts fall on the subject of disappointment. More specifically, disappointment in people who I have always thought of as family. Being in any relationship - social, familial, etc. - in often seen as a 'give and take' scenario. Too often it seems that there is far too much take and not enough give in my recent experiences. That is especially disappointing when you consider the other party a part of you family. It makes you realize exactly how selfish people are. Naturally, this includes yours truly too! Far be it from me to shy away from my faults like that. Nonetheless, one would assume that the label family would lessen some of that selfishness. I guess not. It still saddens me to think that these people, who are so eager to share the good times, can scarce be found during the bad. Perhaps it was time for me to be disillusioned. We all know that the world is no walk in the park: fairness is something we strive for while happy endings are tales we spin for hope. In the end, it makes us treasure most the ones who were willing to share even the bad times.
Of course, it is always much easier to blame the weather than to take responsibility for one's own mood swings. It is merely a passing phase: my melancholy will dissapate as it usually does. Like rain, it will go away and come again another day.
